For a long time I had struggled with my thoughts and started to believe the lies that I never had salvation. A lot of that was me not fully understanding God's love and the fact that I do not have to work for salvation. My mind couldn't grasp the concept that it was done and paid for once and for all at the cross. I thought that I had to try to be holy, not understanding that it was in God's presence that I am made whole. I was forgetting that Jesus paid the price so that I may be blameless in His sight. I was striving thinking that salvation was of my own merit when, after all, it is by God's grace that I am saved.
As I prayed with my friends tonight, I saw this image of a sandcastle with walls and a heart inside. First it was just four walls with water (or love) pouring in, seeping through the walls. Then I pictured a sandcastle, the walls disintegrating as God's grace like the ocean flowed in. I can't help but think about God's love and how it overtakes us... wiping away all worries and concerns.
I know that there are barriers and mindsets God wants to tear down in my life. It's happening... I am just praying for outpour and more of Him.