I need You more.

"I need You more than this breath I'm breathing, more than this feeling I'm feeling inside me. Without You, Lord, I am dead and hopeless. You're the only love that puts life in me." -Great Awakening

As I went about this crazy last week of classes I caught myself saying, "I don't have enough time right now" or "I guess I'll have to wait until later" when it came to time spent with the Lord.

The truth was... when would I find time if my sole desire was not to spend time with the Lord?

Yes, I may have thought that was my earnest intent; but if I had the desperation of Zacheus or the woman reaching for Jesus' hem in the midst of a crowd, I would make the time. If I was genuine in wanting to spend time with the One I love I wouldn't have just gone through the motions and said "that seems enough".

Now, I'm finding myself at the point near tears, apologizing to a Savior who so gently comforts me. These tears well up because He has given everything for me. He is the most gracious and loving of fathers and He is always there to comfort me. He waits for me to turn to Him, not just in times of need but to laugh with Him, to talk to Him, to tell Him my dreams and desires. Time spent with Him is precious and I want to take advantage of it.

I need You more.

More than the things that seem so important and vital,

You are my heartbeat.

You give me the strength to tackle these monstrous giants,

To scale these walls,

To move these mountains.

And now I hear you calling me,

"Where are you?"

I will skip through the garden to Your side

Anxious to hear what You have to say.

Envelop me in your love and grace

Let me look up into Your eyes,

Those eyes that pierce like light through a churning fog,

Those eyes that soothe like the sound of rain on a tin roof.

I want to be lost in Your love.