"I was a middle son,
Between two wayward ones.
I was more deserving of my parent's love."
I was more deserving of my parent's love."
I'm sitting here reflecting on my story and how far God has brought me from that point...
The place where I felt deserving, not because God laid down His life for me, but because I felt "good enough". I was not fully aware of just how much my God had done for me. After reading a passage from Joshua Harris last week, I am amazed! Do you realize he died for every sin ever imagined. When you really think about it, that's incredible!
Not only was he bruised and beaten for every sin, he stands defending each one in intercession. He would gladly stand up for and defend a sinner, someone completely undeserving, all for love.
What other God do we know that would do that for man?
But what is man?
Yet... He lavishes his love upon us, chooses to call us sons and daughters.
Revolutionary... Indestructible... Inseparable LOVE.
The place where I felt deserving, not because God laid down His life for me, but because I felt "good enough". I was not fully aware of just how much my God had done for me. After reading a passage from Joshua Harris last week, I am amazed! Do you realize he died for every sin ever imagined. When you really think about it, that's incredible!
Not only was he bruised and beaten for every sin, he stands defending each one in intercession. He would gladly stand up for and defend a sinner, someone completely undeserving, all for love.
What other God do we know that would do that for man?
But what is man?
Yet... He lavishes his love upon us, chooses to call us sons and daughters.
Revolutionary... Indestructible... Inseparable LOVE.
The song I quoted at the beginning goes on to say: "I was a Pharisee. I never saw my need for grace. Then Your love it came to me, stood next to mine and I saw that I was poor."
I am finding it important to remember who God is... to take a look at the compassionate, kind, gracious Savior... and to look true love in the eyes, to let Him transform a self-seeking, limited heart into an outward focused heart with unlimited capacity to love. I start remembering things like the fact that I used to think I was "good enough" and remembering my sin, but not to dwell on it, rather to remember that I have been forgiven; to give praise to the One who is deserving. For he who is forgiven much, loves much. Thank goodness I did not stay in that state of pride for long... I couldn't. The Holy Spirit knew that, that would only bring death.
Though, I still have more that I am dealing with in having a heart change, in being renewed and transformed; I rejoice for all that God has done.
Though, I still have more that I am dealing with in having a heart change, in being renewed and transformed; I rejoice for all that God has done.
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